This is my first confession, girls. As I said I have no fears, no shame, no modesty, and true to myself, tell you all what has changed some things in my life for the better obviously.
Before ...
start from the beginning, not too far behind because we are interested in us and it is not my intention to give an account of my past life, and I suppose we do not want to waste time reading it.
get right to the point. Silver I know a couple of years or so, then I was a kid, and I must say that his knowledge is not struck me particularly, it certainly was, and still is, a nice guy, helpful and attractive but, as I was focused on my boy, I have not paid particular attention. It was a simple knowledge
I will not elaborate further on where or how I met him, nor about my relationship with my ex, very dingy and very tender, but you know it was the first love and blindness, and the inexperience ' enthusiasm of so many hopes of confusing (I have not done anything, so for the record, that I was a virgin because there was no time nor opportunity to do so, thank goodness I add, even if I wanted him there and then).
Well, Silver did some of my friends but not me, or rather, I found him very attractive and a nice guy (God uuuhm eyes ...) but I was concentrating on my boy, so that did not consider anything other than the facts.
Then ...
Then I broke up with my boyfriend, to be precise, I was left, and plunged into depression are more value: the broken dreams, hopes to zero, the world had no meaning, no longer made sense. I spent the days isolated from everyone, did not want to go out, I did not want to talk to anyone, I arrived to remove me from all my friends, even my best friends did not want anyone around, I wanted to stay with alone with my incurable pain. Mostly I spent my days and nights, crying, often not even eat. I refused all calls for the group and I also deny me the phone.
short, a state of depression induced by external causes, in fact, were contributing factors why I have always had a predisposition to loneliness and shyness towards others. Let's say I've never been the belle of the class, the good that all follow or envy, and all the kids would like. My life, even before all this, was ... small, insignificant, you did what you had to do, maybe you went out with the group, nothing more nothing less. I think we understand ... In this
time, Silver was on the edge of my thoughts. He was in the group (also quite diverse in age, I must say), and I was not thinking about him, nor came to save the situation, as in fairy tales. Unfortunately the reality is never as we would like ... In short
. I spent this crisis and started to show me around. In the meantime I had lost many friends and many friends (even older than me), but I wanted to retrieve a attimino contact with the outside world and I wanted to grow again ... what remained.
I was very selfish, of course people are not comfortable nor can lose my time to understand what I went through, but her friends the real ones, I was born and I have demonstrated their love when I came back (my ex, has since changed the city, enrolling at the university).
God, how I've changed since then!
Of all the friendships I cultivated was that of Silver, from simple knowledge became the friend to confide.
After ... The
friend to confide in, yes, it's about everything: relationships with my ex, how I had been discharged, what I wanted to do and much more. Certainly it was a relationship that has been growing, because with the passage of time, I realized how I could trust him anything that I was never told that to anyone, and I know why ... I had my spies. Not only, therefore, found in him the assurance that most guys do not have, but I realized that talking with him was one thing ... therapeutic, I felt good, relieved of many doubts and fears. Not that he was just to listen, he had his doubts and his agenda, the fact is that in a matter of time we felt united by lots of little secrets and thoughts that remained between us, and they hand the friendship deepened, we walked more and more confidence, more and more ....
Friend to confidant.
arrived to speak, slowly, sex, nudity, locations, etc., all very freely, but, above all, in a playful and uninhibited, now we were so well together that we had not ashamed to confide in each other or express something. This went
always a bit 'away, and the secrets began to be less and less, then, one day, for fun, I told him that I had never seen a naked guy. He smiled and told me it was strange to see everything that goes on TV and the Internet. We continued to talk for a bit, 'then I told him that I would just like to see a naked guy. He smiled and told me if I was sure you want to or if I was only joking.
I was sure, sure, but I never expected that he would have satisfied me, that is, maybe deep down I wanted, I wanted what was coming but was still not enough "Free" to admit it, even to myself (how many taboos idiots!). The fact is that he has become
up and told me that if I was sure I would just see something and has run his shirt removed.
When I saw him shirtless I felt something move inside me. I laughed but I stood waiting anxiously to see it go forward, I wanted to, I wanted .... He smiled
sits down again, I took courage and asked him if he wanted to continue, red with shame, but always trying to smile, deep down it was a game.
I contented, stopping every once rose a garment, but I insisted I wanted more, I wanted to see naked!
At the end I finally naked in front of me. We were both embarrassed, in fact, but we knew it was all a game, nothing more, and that was to play down a bit 'the thing that could be extremely compromising.
E 'was the first step towards a new understanding of myself. I have opened up new doors, just like my email, a new door to a new world, new because never before experienced, but old, because each of us, deep down, he has already within itself, it must only have the courage to discover it and live it.
Life is short after all, the body remains young for a limited time, even if you do not realize it, and it's nice to take advantage when we can enjoy it, it's nice to play without compromise excessively, it's nice to be able to open his mind freely to those who can appreciate and share. I, fortunately, I found Silver.
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